In silence of the night

Most of the time I try to find words in a silent room, but at times silence is the basking in true happiness.  My kids sleep next to me in my bed. They are al sleeping drifting into dream land can't help but bask and listen to silence with some sweet songs of snoring.  As Blake lays to my right he's probably the loudest snoring of all giving Tim a true run for his money. Brittain lays in my left crease of my elbow is the quiet one. She's gentle and sweet even as she dreams. Chase normally sleeps on top of my right arm but this time sleeps closer to his Dad. He is also making sweet music too, but more like a steady beat. In these silent moments I am so Thankful for the blessings God has given me. I absolutely love these moments of reflection of our day and sweet basking in my loves sweet music while visiting dreamland.  Sleep sweet my babies and dream of great amazing things.

Loving my last baby

I have been busy lately.  But I been holding my baby girl tightly. Her and I are connected we are always together when I'm not at work. She stand beside me whatever  doing, I hope one day she realizes how much she means to me. I love my boys too, I am also connected to them it's just in a different way.
Stay amazing baby girl!

Monday will be 6 years!

6 years ago in Cabo San Lucas Tim and I made it official and were married on the beautiful beaches. It seems so long ago yet not if that makes any sense.
 

 I can say I honestly feel very lucky. Marriage is not always easy. Tim knows me well enough to know exactly how to irritate me, he knows exactly what to say in the most silent moments, and he knows me. With that said in this marriage I can not hide my feelings its no longer an option. Those days that Im not having a good day and just don't feel lovey dove he picks up on it by merely a single 1 minute phone conversation despite my best attempt to hide my bad mood. There is only one other person that can do that with me and that is my dad.

 It is a growing process that continue to grow. God has truly blessed us to hav such companionship in our lves.

 

And this coming February we will celebrate again being a couple for 9 years that is so crazy....Right?
Together we have both have worked for amazing careers and made a family together. Im excited to see what amazing other things we do together as a team.

We have fought more then ever in the last year but oddly feel closer and happier then ever....hummm I wonder why that is??


Happy Anniversary BABE!!!

School is back!

Dreamy white kitchen !!

So since we bought the house I have been wanting to redo the kitchen. I have waffled between white or dark expresso cabinets. I need a contrast from the floors the kitchen dosent get much light so dark cabinets would just make the kitchen darker so white it is! We have started the long process. We have a ton of ideas but doing 1 step at a time clean, sand, prime, paint and maybe another sand. This is a picture of just prime you can see we still have a long way. Its a ton of fun though! I love it. With just the white prime the kitchen already feels bigger and now lights are too bright. We may need to switch to soft lighting to soften it up. We will see

Brittain is turning 1 tomorrow at 4:27

My baby girl is turning 1 tomorrow at exactly 4:27. She loves to eat especially Oreos mint is actually her favorite.  She weighs 21 pounds and is only at 28 inchs. Ha! She has 4 teeth barely got her top 2 teeth and she has 2 more coming in ! Her mouth have been busy the last few weeks. She has also started walking. She walks short distances until she hits to crawl. She still nurses (thank god) our bonding time. She absolutely loves music and dances to whatever is playing on tv or sometimes give her phone with Pandora playing. :) I love you so much! You have brought so much hope, healing and love into my life. I pray we stay best friends. Love you, Brittain Kinsley Miller! Stay amazing!

Getting back to the Millers

Some how lately it seems that I have been lost, a little. How often do you allow others to question your family culture? I don't even know if people know they are doing it right? Friends or family influence us to look at the differences not that they are bad or good but simply different. So how are we going back to being the Millers???

Doing things as a family- although can be difficult and sometimes impossible looking back at each crazy  adventure (even going to Target with a group of 5) its actually memorable and funny.

Making stuff on our own- My aunt always said since I was a little girl "you have expensive taste" and truth is I do. But money and wants don't always match. So Started a number of little projects for the house and for Brittain's  birthday

Enjoying the kids- Lately I have felt pressured to work more really not sure why or where from but I felt guilty for working more and stressed when I work less. so why change it???? Im staying working where its flexible.

Education- I know Im particular about this some even Tim think a little nuts... But honestly education is key (most of the time). The kids can become self efficient without it but what about all the other benefits to education??? Socially, esteem, respect and endurance? I learned so much going to college and not just nursing stuff. I learned how to think long term, critically thinking and the meaning of not giving up. So I have applied to UOA.... for masters of nursing. Tim and I have finally sat down and agreed to a school for the kids. It was lengthy and paper was involved :)


Don't you just love this picture of the kids??? I know its funny right. the boys being good then there's Brittain picking her nose or at least pretending to.

did I mention Brittain is starting to walk. She takes a few steps on her own before she hits bottom. So sad

Lately

Lately, I been focused on being me. I have noticed somewhere along the way I have worrying, comparing, and hesitant.  Worrying about school for the kids, moving, career, and cars. I been so focused on the future and some big decisions coming up that have to be made instead of just doing the stuff I love like playing with the kids, creating and learning.  So started on Brittain's birthday. Tim and I made the tough decisions today and concluded on them.

Kids are great. Blake is loving summer break. Asking if I can jist home school him? Chase is being loving and practicing baseball all the time. Brittain is standing on her own thinking of walking.  Here are some and not so fabulous pictures.

Today Brittain is 11 months old

Today Brittain is officially 11 months old. My baby girl turns 1 next month! Can you believe it? She is amazing. She only has 2 lower teeth, she stands on her own, walks with toys or chairs, she loves music and dancing, and loves food. This picture was taken yesterday the 4th in her bathing suit. The other one she was eating craham crackers. Love you baby girl.

My favorites at the beach!

California Legoland had us at the beginning! The boys loved it but were anxious to get home to open thier sets. Here we are at the beach.

Summer 2014

Summer has officially started. Lots of swimming for me, Tim and Brittain. Blakes officially out of school. He was nominated for student of the year!!! He was so excited and happy. Trips have been planned. Bed times have been extended and sleep is plentiful around here (at least for the kids and I).  Here are some pictures. Blake had his allstar game too.

Brittain at 9mths

Look at these pictures I got of her today. She was officially 9mths old yesterday.

 She is growing so fast...Your so Pretty and sweet Baby Brittain! Love you my sweet girl!

Brittain & Chase

The other day they got their first bath together. They loved it. Chase doesn't play a whole lot yet with her, but we know he loves her. When random people come up to us to look at her Chase becomes like a lion to protect his cub. He normally yells "my baby! Go away!" In awkwardness Tim and I laugh not sure what to say. When they walk away Tim gives knuckles and says "way to protect your sister"

I love watching my kids play together.  I pray they stay this close forever.

To pierce or NOT pierce

Since I found out I was preggo with a girl I been excited to get her ears pierced.  As most of you know I research everything.  After she was born I began researching and  talking to her doctor. It is then I discovered controversy "brutal"some say, "unnecessary,  and risky". My mom and dad had my ears done early and I don't remember a thing. After much thought we decided to do it here's why.

1. It should only hurt for a minute or so

2. The boys had a much worse procedure done that to is unnecessary and much more risky. ( but would thank us later)

3. She would mess with them less at this age as she would at an older age.

4. these things are part of our culture and this makes us US.  Most girls/women have ears pierced.  I actually don't know one lady that doesn't.  

*** I decided to get another ear piercing so I can get one with her. This moment became a mother/daughter moment.  We have matching earrings***

I love you my baby Brittain. You handled it amazingly. By the way cried less then 30sec

Here she is this am

Me and my beautiful daughter!

God knew what I needed. Love you !