I am totally dreading tomorrow night. I will put on my scrubs and grab my stethoscope to head to work. Just thinking about it makes my stomach hurt and tears in my eyes. Leaving my baby girl with her awesome dad just hurts. I know she will be in great hands we have practiced her taking a bottle several times and she is not much of a cryer. Its just the separation that breaks my heart. I will miss her! The way she nestles her face to my neck, her grib around my arm or finger when I hold her, her smile when I change her diaper and the way she stares into my eyes as she drifts off to dream land at night. This may seem small to most people but these little things are my world. I am torn up this time going to work. I don't know if its her age 10 weeks or my last baby or a combo but my stomach hurts my eyes are filled with tears. God please help me through this.... I know I don't want to be a stay at home mom but I have this heavy heart.
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